Because Christianity is bigger than Biblical manhood or Biblical womanhood (Blog of Retha Faurie)

From about entering teenage-hood, I felt that I was not womanly enough:

Not womanly enough, because the idea of one-sided submission to a man scared me.

Not womanly enough, because my facial features are wide and indelicate.

Not womanly enough, because I talk both too little and too loud.

(If talking too little sound strange, let me explain. Neurotypicals – non-autistic people – have this weird habit of making small talk, of talking when they have nothing to say. They will, for example, ask: “How are you?” when they have no interest in how things are really going in your life. It is more or less socially acceptable for men to opt out of such meaningless chatter, but women are seen as rude if they do.)

Not womanly enough, because I did not wear as much make-up and do the personal grooming other women do.

Not womanly enough, because I had no more of a natural inclination to help in the kitchen than my brothers did.

Too much of this, too little of that. And I felt guilty because I thought I was not who God made me to be.

When I found egalitarianism, I realized it is ridiculous: “Biblical” womanhood is nonsense, but so is worldly womanhood. I am woman enough. I do not need to conform to stereotypes.

To be a Godly woman, a focus on Godliness is good enough. I simply have to develop all the gifts God gave me, and display the fruit of the Spirit. When I talk loudly, it is a womanly way of talking because I do it. I have a womanly broad nose because it is on a woman’s face. My desire for a mutually respectful relationship instead of one-sided submission is womanly. My interest in mathematics and logic is womanly. My lack of interest in cooking is womanly. I make these things womanly.

To accept that God made me a woman, and the stereotypes are unnecessary for adequate womanhood, was so freeing!

Comments on: "Woman enough: One thing Christian egalitarianism did for me" (4)

  1. Anika Torrance said:

    I am also an autistic woman who once believed many of the same things.

    It might stand between you and God.

    As far as between you and a prospective husband (who have to deal every day with worldly judgments that can and do wear on you)…

    …good luck with that.

    Believing those things got me nothing but a worldly smackdown and a flaming case of PTSD. Hope it goes better for you.


    • Anika, I want to make sure: Is what you used to believe, the things that gave you PTSD, the idea that you were not enough/ too much to be a woman? I think you mean that, am I right?

      Or is it the view that you are woman enough because God made you a woman?


  2. Retha, really enjoyed this post, sat my 14 year old down and read it to her -just lovely.


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